Long ago (okay, probably just a little
more than a year ago) I found myself where many wives find
themselves: with a bad case of "baby fever". We had two
children at the time, and after our second, we agreed that was all we
could handle. (I think we thought we really meant it, too!) But,
somewhere along the line since my daughter was born almost two years
prior, I felt that God changed my heart concerning our family size. I
was beginning to feel like we needed to try to add one more, and of
course my husband was not moved by my rationale of "I don't know
why, I just think we should."
(So typical!)
So,
here we were in this place of disagreement. It seemed to last for a
few months. I kept re-approaching the subject, to no avail. (He kept
reminding me of all the reasons we thought we were done). I struggled
with submitting to him, I pleaded with God to change him, or to give
me some way to get my point across...something!
Finally,
I had an "a-ha!" moment. I can't remember exactly how this
came to me (did I read it somewhere?) but I had the notion to pray
that our desires would line up with God's desires for our family.
"Lord,
I ask that You would cause Your desires to become our desires, and
that we would come into agreement with Your plan."
Now,
if you read a few posts back, you'll know how this turned out for us
(it happened pretty quickly too, I might add). I was scared to pray
this way, because that meant surrendering my
will and accepting God's will (okay, admittedly, in this scenario,
more often than not, His plan is for growth, but still).
How
would praying that prayer impact our lives in other instances?
- A relocation
- Finances
- Educational choices for our children